Planets

Last week I lost a friend.  At least I think technically I did. We used to live a few doors down from each other and my easy going Aspie connected with her son.  If I had suggested her son was also splashed with Asperger's I suspect I would have lost that friend a little bit earlier.  It's all good though, in so many ways we are all sprayed with something: Aspie, Adhd, Ocd, Anxiety, well, something neurological.

I have been dwelling on and off about losing that friendship.  In reality it was only when she was a stay at home parent and I a forced stay at home parent, we connected.  She started work while I could neither afford it or energetically absorb that and three children with special needs.  We drifted.  I saw it, I knew.  She would call me on her commute home from work....she was bored.  I was knee deep in medication needs, meltdowns and the most full on part of my day.  My father (aka asshole sperm donor) does the same.  He likes to call between dinner and bedtime.  It suits him on his Western European time frame.  I have begged he not......he forgets.  Thus, I ignore his calls.

All of the above had me over the last few weeks really absorb how others truly do NOT understand the planet of special needs, the planet of Autism.  Autism spins, regardless of your schedule, your needs or your demands.  Autism, Early Onset Bipolar, Adhd and Sensory Processing Disorder is far too busy to care about your time frame, open calendar, boredom, insomnia.

We truly are planets, I and my three continents on ours and everyone else on theirs.  Some planets are bigger than others as they hold more experiences.  That's ok.  However, remember it is only Earth, the third smallest of the solar system that holds sentient life.  One of the smallest in our solar system.  Your Planet may be massive and homogeneous,  mine is small and devoid of bullshit.  Enjoy your planet.    Make sure it doesn't burst.